Wednesday, October 3, 2012

And Now for Something Completely Different - Part Two

Hi everyone! It's been a loooong while since I've checked in here! Summer was crazy.....but lovely at the same time. Kelowna had a gorgeous summer with lots of hot hot days, just the way I like it. It always goes by so fast, though, and before I knew it fall was here.

My daughter left for Spain in September to be an au pair for eight months. My middle son is graduating this year and the youngest is in grade nine. Everyone is busy and happy doing their thang.

I knew this fall would feel different, as a Mom especially. I'm not needed as much anymore. Except for feeding the hungry horde (I am known to cook a meal occasionally, which is always appreciated), driving, and being around for emotional support and Gestapo-like laundry and bathing checks (two teenage boys? Come on!)

So I started to consider what MY fall would look like. Or rather, what I wanted it to look like. I have focused on my writing for the past four years, and it's been great. I finished my first novel, started a second, started a third. I'm proud of what I've accomplished and what I've learned.

But....things were feeling stale. I found I wasn't writing regularly, and that bothered me. Was I just being lazy, or was I ready for something else? I hated it when people would ask me, 'so, how's the writing going?' or, 'got that book published yet?' I'd mutter some lame answer and slink away.

I began to think about what was really going on.....besides guilt. Digging under the layers of 'should' and 'have to' were hard. Anyways, I came up with a crazy idea....just crazy enough that it might be the answer!

My next post will talk about what I'm doing now and how it's going, and what I'm learning....about myself and others.......

Check in soon!


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